Wishing the past was better but glad its not (weird title I know)

My past makes me who I am today... but every-time I think of it I know of a billion things that I could've done better.... I am not a failure I have fallen.... but I got back up time and again.... I will fall again I will get up every-time, I can't help to fall. I am a sinner.All the mistakes I've made they will/have-been molding me into the man that God wants me to be :). All those mistakes though they tear at my heart, people think we should just get over our past mistakes but I dis-agree! I think I should remember them for the rest of my life, therefore I will always strive to be the better man than that past. I can't help my past I can help my future.I WILL HELP MY FUTURE. I will not be the man of the past my past will help me build a stronger future but it still sucks having these memories :(

(if this note does not make sense tell me I will try to edit it to make better sense)